What Do I Know of Holy

The other day Jordan, my mama, my mama-in-law, and I went to my 18 week ultrasound. When J and I first began talking about ultrasounds (back when we were pregnant with our first baby) we were both vehemently opposed to any Doppler or ultrasound use. After speaking with my wonderful midwife, we decided that the pros outweighed the cons, in regards to using ultrasound technology, and we set up our appointment. After having gone through the ultrasound now, I cannot express how glad I am that we did it. It was such a crazy and amazing thing to see the life that is living and growing in my womb. I will admit though, J and I both felt that we were somehow intruding. There is something so holy, sacred, and untouchable about growing and carrying a baby, that we both felt like we were violating this new creation. It was like peeking into a cocoon and seeing the butterfly before it was finished and ready to fly. All that said, I am still thankful that we went ahead with it. As I lied there, watching our baby squirm and kick and wiggle around, I felt like I was stepping on holy ground. And I was. Every time I feel our baby turn and jab and flip I am reminded of how little I know of what is holy. There is a song that comes to mind whenever I feel those crazy movements that expresses my exact thoughts and feelings about this new creation. I feel that I am at a total loss for words when it comes to the joy that I feel and the gratitude that I have, that Father has allowed me to be an active participant and vessel in this sacred process called creation.

Here's the song...

I made You promises a thousand times
I tried to hear from Heaven
But I talked the whole time
I think I made You too small
I never feared You at all No
If You touched my face would I know You?
Looked into my eyes could I behold You?

What do I know of You
Who spoke me into motion?
Where have I even stood
But the shore along Your ocean?
Are You fire? Are You fury?
Are You sacred? Are You beautiful?
What do I know? What do I know of Holy?

I guess I thought that I had figured You out
I knew all the stories and I learned to talk about
How You were mighty to save
Those were only empty words on a page
Then I caught a glimpse of who You might be
The slightest hint of You brought me down to my knees

What do I know of You
Who spoke me into motion?
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Where have I even stood
But the shore along Your ocean?
Are You fire? Are You fury?
Are You sacred? Are You beautiful?
What do I know? What do I know of Holy?

What do I know of Holy?
What do I know of wounds that will heal my shame?
And a God who gave life "its" name?
What do I know of Holy?
Of the One who the angels praise?
All creation knows Your name
On earth and heaven above
What do I know of this love?

What do I know of You
Who spoke me into motion?
Where have I even stood
But the shore along Your ocean?
Are You fire? Are You fury?
Are You sacred? Are You beautiful?
What do I know? What do I know of Holy?

What do I know of Holy?
What do I know of Holy?

15 Weeks

Unfortunately, there won't be a 15 week picture, as I am waiting for one of our goats to have her baby or babies. But I will post the same info that I have been posting...

How far along? 15 Weeks
Maternity Clothes? Anything with a stretchy waist, not necessarily maternity though.
Stretch Marks? Nope
Sleep? Pretty good this week, except there has been a significant increase in bathroom trips.
Best moment of the week? Watching my belly grow and change each day.
Miss anything? Not really.
Movement? I am starting to pay close attention to ANY movement to see if it's baby, but I can't say that I have felt anything yet.
Food cravings? Orange juice is my new best friend!
Have you started to show yet? More and more! A couple of days ago, when I got out of bed, J and I both realized that my belly had grown overnight! I love having a little belly!
Gender? It'll be a surprise.
Looking forward to? I can't wait to feel baby move! So close!
What's going on with baby? Baby is 4 inches long, 2.5 ounces. Baby's lungs are beginning to develop more, his/her legs are longer than his/her arms now. And although baby's eyes are still fused shut, he/she can sense light! I can't believe how quickly baby is growing and changing!

14 Weeks

How far along? 14 Weeks
Maternity Clothes? Leggings and stretchy shirts
Stretch Marks? Nope
Sleep? Not too much of that going on
Best moment of the week? 14 week appointment
Miss anything? Bleu Cheese
Movement? Not yet
Food cravings? Sour candy!
Have you started to show yet? Looking more and more pregnant every week.
Gender? It'll be a surprise.
Looking forward to? Hearing baby's heartbeat, seeing baby on an ultrasound at our 18 week appointment, feeling baby move and kick.
What's going on with baby? Baby is 3 1/2 inches long, 1.5 ounces. He/She can now form facial expressions, and possibly suck his/her thumb!

13 Weeks

How far along? 13 Weeks 1 Day
Maternity Clothes? Just one pair of leggings
Stretch Marks? Not yet, but I am not really worried if I get them or not.
Sleep? Sometimes great, sometimes not so great. Depends on how many bathroom trips.
Best moment of the week? Starting to show more!
Miss anything? Bleu Cheese!!
Movement? Nope. Can't wait to feel those kicks!
Food cravings? I wouldn't say that I am craving anything yet... just some things taste REALLY REALLY good...like mustard and balsamic vinegar (not together)
Have you started to show yet? Just a teeny bump... looks like I just ate a LARGE meal
Gender? Won't know until baby is born!
Looking forward to? Hearing baby's heartbeat
What's going on with baby? Fingerprints have now formed, and baby weighs about an ounce and is about three inches long! Grow baby, grow!!

In Vain

"Thou shalt not take the name of the Lord thy God in vain. This is widely misunderstood. I believe this has nothing to do with vocabulary; it has to do with ambassadorship. If you take the name of the King, you have a responsibility to represent Him accurately. And that's what it's really talking about. But many people assume it's talking about swearing. No, it goes far beyond that." Chuck Missler Chew on that for awhile.

A Fishin' and a Cannin'

About a week or so ago, J, my Pops, and I drove down to the Kenai for some dipnetting/camping. After about 16 hours driving time (which included an early am car accident, a two hour delay at Turnagain Pass, and about a 45 min wait at Walmart Customer Service...ahhh!!) we ended up getting a grand total of 44 fish! Last year was our first time canning salmon, and we only ended up getting 27 fish. So we were pretty excited that we doubled our fish count. This year we decided to can all of it, instead of freezing some. We are planning on smoking the frozen filets that we didn't use from last year. Anyway, after about 3+days of canning, we totaled out at about 132 pint jars and around three cases of quart size jars. That roughly equals out to about 2-3 jars a week for the rest of the year!! Woohoo! J and I are really wanting to limit our meat supply to things that we can hunt or fish. Commercial/industry meat is so absolutely abhorrent, and I want to steer clear of it as much as possible... Do your RESEARCH and you will understand what I mean! This month has gone by so incredibly fast with a wedding, bachelorette party (not in that order), friends coming and going, CCC meetings, a barbeque, and finally getting a taste of garden harvests. Kale, chard, spinach, lettuce, zucchini, arugula, basil, dill, parsley, sage, catnip, thyme, bok choy, broccoli are abundant and I love it! I set out some herbs to dry and I couldn't help but do a little happy dance inside myself because I can't wait to begin to harvesting and putting up process. I will try to get some pictures up soon. The potatoes are doing well... J and I mulched over half of them, and will finish up the rest soon. They are just beginning to flower, which means that they are starting to produce potatoes. It will be so exciting to finally be able to dig those up! The bees have faked us out twice now by "pretending" to swarm. For those of you who don't know what swarming is, I will explain... When a hive starts getting to large for the space they are in, they will create another queen, split the population and one half will fly to another location with one of the queens. Now it is absolutely essential to have another hive ready way in advance, so that you can "catch" or keep the swarming hive, or you will miss out on a lot more honey. It was pretty crazy the first day they swarmed, because they flew up into a tree directly above the hive...they formed this gigantic mass of bees and it was NUTS! (I will post a picture later) Anyway, they ended up flying right back into the hive. And a few weeks later, they did it again. I cannot wait to harvest the honey next month! I think we will be getting a good harvest this year. A neighbor brought over a small jar of her honey and I can't even begin to describe how utterly delightful it was. Store bought honey isn't even a drop in the bucket compared to the real raw stuff. By the way, did you know that honey is the most adulterated food product out there? Most of it is basically honey-flavored sugar water. We all decided that the honey will be reserved for toast, biscuits, and other things that you can actually taste the honey on. It will not be used for any sort of cooking/baking, I was also told that I am not allowed to use it in my tea :(, since I am probably one of the greatest honey consumers, with the amount of tea I drink. It depends on the season and my mood, but I think I have maxed out at around ten cups a day... maybe that's not a lot, but it seems like a lot to me! Anyway, I have also been spending my days decorating my sweet little home. I will post pictures soon! It is not technically finished, but it's good enough for me, and it is kind of nice to have an ongoing project. I cannot wait for the coming winter months filled with days cozying up in my rocking chair near the woodstove with a good book or a knitting project, a cup of tea, and a candle going...oooo it just makes me happy thinking about it! I am thankful for the summer days, and it makes me happy to think about all the pretty mason jars that will sit on my pantry shelf filled with the beautiful harvest from the garden, the river, and the land. Alrighty, well that's all for now... here are the pictures from our fishing trip and canning!

Love the process! Hannah

The Garden, Lately, and Things We Do in Our Spare Time

Hey everyone! I thought I would give you all a little update on the garden stuff... Wednesday, J and I went into town to pick up some more potatoes (I am a tad obsessed) and 2000lbs. of cow hay. No, we did not get a cow... the hay is for mulching and animal bedding, and it was a whole lot cheaper than straw. We bought an additional 15 pounds of potatoes, which now makes 45 lbs of potatoes planted! The varieties we used were Cherry Red, Russet, Yellow Finn, German Butterball, and Pimpernel. Today we mulched the potatoes with the hay we bought.

Chard planted in containers...

A few days ago, Shannon and I planted 60+ starts of sweet corn, and fashioned a "greenhouse" of sorts to keep the corn happy and warm. Today, Shannon checked the soil and at the bottom it was 86 degrees! Even within a few days, the starts have grown so much. I told J that my babies are growing up way too fast! Anyway, at this point, we have planted sweet corn, Painted Mountain corn, kohlrabi, kale, bok choy, lettuce, arugula, romaine, spinach, Contender and Provider beans, Swiss and Rainbow Chard, cabbage, zucchini, squash, broccoli, cauliflower, brussel sprouts, garlic, onions, tomatoes, dill, basil, parsley, lavender, cilantro, sage, catnip, oregano, thyme, lemon basil, chives, rosemary, strawberry, and horseradish. We have yet to plant beets, turnips, pumpkin, some remaining brussel sprouts, collard and mustard greens, and peas. Life has swept us up in a whirlwind, but I am enjoying every moment of this season! Every night I come home exhausted, and I love it! I love the feeling of coming home, feeling like something huge was accomplished (even though it is small in the grand scheme), sitting down in my rocking chair in front of the wood stove, with a cup of tea, reading by candlelight, and feeling totally overwhelmed with contentedness, and joy. Every day is an opportunity to find love and joy in everything you do. I will be the first to admit, I am not very good at this. Often times, I will wake up, and set my mind to be content and joyful, but throughout the day, things can ambush you and distract you from that goal. Something I have been working on is actively searching out Father's love in things. Whether it's the smell of the forest after a good hardy rain, or anticipating the arrival of fiddlehead ferns and devil's club, or even the annoying-ness of the roosters crow it is all beautiful. It is all created to be enjoyed and to ultimately turn our awesome wonder back to its Creator. Okay, so here is the rest of the intended post. There were several rodents gorging themselves on the compost pile, so I happily obliged in assisting them on the journey to meet their maker. I truly hope this doesn't come across anyone involved in animal rights or somesuch, or I/we might be in trouble! You can just copy and paste these into your search engine. (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VFbA3K4L1hw) (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WDHP-9rT2-8) (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a27PELxutGY) Enjoy your life!